Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Anxious

Tomorrow is the re-try for the nuchal fold scan. It's been two weeks since my last try (and the babies were only a hair too small then), so there shouldn't be any problem getting the measurements this time. And I'm really anxious. Most people that I interact with on a regular basis know that I'm pregnant. There's no hiding it. I'm wearing maternity blouses nearly exclusively right now. The only reason I'm still wearing my regular skirts is that I lost 19 pounds in my last pregnancy and 15 pounds at the beginning of this pregnancy, and I've only gained back about 2 pounds so far. Anyway, the point is, everyone knows I'm pregnant at this point, for the most part. And if something happens tomorrow... I just don't want to have to go through "un-telling" anyone.

So I'm nervous. Even though I'm sure everything is fine.

Also, I feel like hell. It's already hard to breathe if I'm doing anything but lying down. My hips are killing me. I have unbelievably ridiculous cramping (which I'm still deciding not to worry about). My migraines are completely uncontrollable. And I'm a big whiner and I hate whining, so now I'm whining about the fact that I'm being a big, annoying whiner! I'm 13 weeks today and I seriously have no idea how I'm going to manage to work until 19/20 weeks, which is when I was told to expect not to be able to work anymore. I'm just not sure I'm going to make it that far. It's already so hard for me to sit, stand, walk, whatever. I'm half-considering renting a scooter to get me through a few extra weeks of work, but the rest of me thinks, you know... having another few weeks off of work wouldn't KILL me...

And, um, that's all there is to report. Hopefully there will be more after my perinatology appointment tomorrow for the nuchal fold.

6 comments:

megan said...

sorry to hear you're feeling so badly. i'll keep my fingers crossed that all goes well for the nuchal scan tomorrow!

Anonymous said...

Crossing my fingers that the scan goes well tomorrow.

suzanne said...

ahhh woman...i KNOW those symptoms all too well! hang in there..i know it SUCKS! i have to watch myself sometimes when i'm talking around friends who can't get pregnant, b/c i'm SO frickin' negative sometimes! so, i'm right there with ya! and man, i thought i was going to be able to work until week 20, but that was a joke...go ahead and get prepared for the possibility that you might have to quit sooner. just listen to your body, i was LIMPING to my car everyday! let us know how the nuchal scan goes..they look for that with my identicals everytime, and everytime i hold my breath!

The Town Criers said...

I am sending luck, crossing fingers, and doing many other superstitious things for the test tomorrow. I hope it goes well. I'll be thinking about you all day and sending good thoughts.

Anonymous said...

Hooray for thirteen weeks! I imagine you are both feeling relieved to have made it to thirteen weeks and feeling nervous about feeling relieved.

Any reason not to keep and use a wheelchair at work for however long you keep working?

How's your B12? There are supplements that can be taken sublingually.

Best wishes for calm and relaxation.

Rachel Inbar said...

Good luck with the scan! As for the pain & discomfort, I bought one of those totally un-sexy (to put it mildly) maternity belts and it made a huge difference (from not being able to walk at all to walking with no pain). I wore it during almost all of my waking hours.

Enjoy seeing your cuties :-)